Guitars gave me life, and now im giving back

Have you ever wanted something so badly that it kept you going through the darkest times?
This is the story of how chasing my dream of building guitars saved my life and helped me overcome depression after losing all hope. Today, I’m bringing that dream to life by starting a boutique electric guitar company, with the purpose of living life to the fullest.

building guitars to overcome depression

For over Ten years I lived in darkness. Carrying a pain that crushes your chest and twisting your stomach, seeps into your bones and turns every simple act into a mountain, that makes the simplest tasks feel overwhelmingly complicated.
Since middle school, I have struggled with depression. I was sad, exhausted, and detached from the world around me. Every task felt heavy. Every day felt like something I had to survive rather than live.
It’s hard to explain that kind of pain, it’s invisible, deep and endless, and can only be understood by those who’ve been there themselves.
But throughout all those years, one thing kept me going: a childhood dream. A dream of building guitars.

“The worst pain a man can suffer: to have insight into much and power over nothing.”
-Herodotus

It sounds almost naive when I think back, a kid who could barely get through a day, holding on to the idea of building guitars for a living. Yet that dream was my lifeline. It gave me something to hold onto when everything else fell apart.

After graduating high school, I felt a lot better and optimistic about my future, thinking I’ve won this battle. but in a sudden change things have started to get even worse. For years, I got stuck in a loop or even a downward spiral. Tried every medicine, went to therapy and kept making the right decisions, trying so hard to break this cycle. I used to describe it like running on a treadmill or keeping full throttle on neutral. But even then, I haven’t given up on my dream, I tried to make it happen. It was scary and felt impossible but I couldn’t give up. I failed, again and again, but kept trying.

Letting go, just to find a better grip

I didn’t have the energy, the focus, or the stability it takes to run a business, it even took me years to finish a single build. The dream that once gave me life, started to feel like a cruel reminder of what I couldn’t be.

Eventually, I gave up. I decided to let go of the idea of opening my own workshop. I told myself I just wasn’t capable and decided on my next move, Thought it’s time to take myself together and start living like a “grown adult”.
But war has started and shuffled all the cards. We were evacuated from our home, moved to a new place and in April 2024 everything changed. I went through a dramatic change (that is a long story for another post). but something inside me shifted. It’s hard to put into words, but it was like waking up after years of sleep. To a life running by a really bad bot. It felt like I was reborn.

i understood that this “childish dream” saved my life. that the passion of building guitars allowed me to ovecome depression.
I was given my life back and couldn’t afford to waste it. no longer willing to live half a life, running by fear and sadness.

and so I went on a journey, of healing and rehabilitation. taking back control over my life and starting over after losing my “most beautiful years”.
I wasn’t going to keep letting pain and fear decide who I am or what I could become.

so I made promises to myself: stop doubting myself, no more compromises, and settling for things I wasn’t happy about.
Going all in for the dream that kept me alive.

So here I am, building guitars again. But this time, with new purpose, new strengths, and a deep sense of gratitude.

Looking Ahead

Today, I’m working on a line of three original models that reflect both my journey and my love for the instrument:
The Wife – Inspired by the timeless 50s singlecut. Classic and elegant, with a presence that feels both vintage and modern at once.
The Mistress – My personal take on an offset guitar, designed to offer a wide range of customization options. From bare-bones simplicity to a full-on showstopper, allowing  the most freedom and individuality.
The Girlfriend – Inspired by one of Leo Fender’s revolutionary designs, the most iconic doublecut  in the world. The Girlfriend is Familiar yet different, offering a full spectrum, from subtle homage to a whole reinterpretation. 

Alongside building these guitars, I’m also offering setup services here in my workshop in the heart of Israel. 

Building guitars,beyond Wood and Strings

But this journey isn’t just about wood, tone, and craftsmanship. It’s about people. After everything I’ve been through, the years of silence, the emptiness, and the fear, I realized I don’t just want to make guitars. I want to make a difference.

That’s why I’m developing a Talk — a lecture built around my story. Not to dramatize what I went through, but to make it matter.
To use it as a bridge for connection, hope, and healing.
I want to share Through my story what I learned the hard way, and help others. whether they’re struggling with mental illness and fighting silent battles of their own, or simply trying to find their own way to live this life.
I want to remind people that  there’s always a way forward, even if it’s not the one you planned, you just need to find a reason to keep going.
And maybe, just maybe, my words and my guitars, can inspire someone else to live their lives to the fullest, first of all for themselves.

Finding My Voice

There was a time I couldn’t even speak clearly. When I didn’t have the energy to form words. Today, I want to use my voice, Not just to tell my story, but to listen. to really hear others, to connect and to build something larger than myself.

So if you’re reading this, I want to hear from you.
Do you have a dream, a passion, or something burning inside you that you’ve been afraid to chase? something that would break your heart to leave behind if you reached the end of your life without trying?
Let me know in the comments, Because maybe, just like guitars gave me life,  your dream might be waiting to give you yours.

Thanks for reading.

This is only the beginning. I’m looking ahead, toward a future filled with sound, stories, and connection. A future built on wood, strings, and second chances. Because the way I see it now, life isn’t about chasing perfection, and waiting for the right time, when it will get easier and better. It’s about living now, even if it’s messy, and scary. It is about finding meaning in the imperfections and building something beautiful out of them.